Throughout my life the Father has been working on me. Showing me how to cleanse the inside of the cup. I assure you that it has not been an easy journey. This group has been around for awhile and started as a ministry to unmarried people. However, I know the gift the Father has placed within me only because I know how people have been blessed through what the Father is doing in my own life. And I came to realize that what I brought to the unmarried is the same thing we all need whether we are married or not.

We all endure heart ache, grief, and many other things and are trying to figure out life. When I was a young man I began working on my own life and examining my own heart. I have come to learn this is a life long journey. Even though even at an early age people considered me a “nice guy” I knew what was in my own heart. I experienced the abuse of many and struggled to come out of that. After I spent a year in counseling with a pastor/counselor with a doctorate in his field I began studying on my own under the guidance of the Ruach. I dialogued with university professors and another person with a masters so that I knew that what I was learning was accurate. Am I a psychologist? Nope. I thought I would go to school at one point and get a degree (realized the only degree I’ve ever had is from being sick 🙂 ) but the Father would not allow me to do that. Blessed be his name. I spoke to someone later who filled me in on how they hinder your thinking because of the man made things that go into that.

So I am someone who has simply studied for many years and as much as I have learned I continue to realize how much I don’t know. I worked on cleansing the inside of the cup as Messiah taught us and realized how well that actually works. While many people make a vain attempt at cleaning up the environment around them, I took years in front of the mirror examining my own heart. Through that experience the world became a much better place and I am far happier than I have ever been. Nobody can rob the joy the Father has given me. I have stood in front of men literally who either punched me in the face while I took the blows (Yes, it can be done but only if you have the Love of Messiah) and loved those people. They don’t know what to do after you refuse to fight other than walk away disgusted because they could not provoke you. I kid you not, it works. Every word of Messiah works, you just have to come to trust him because it all comes from the Father, Elohim YHVH.

My journey has been a hard one. Much abuse as a boy, a child and a young adult. But I do not regret any of it because the Father used all of it to strengthen me. Never fear the firey trial you are faced with. Praise YHVH for it because when you trust him through the fire, he will refine you and bring you out of the fire and reward you for eternity. This is the ministry YHVH has given me, to prove his refining fire works every time in those who will not doubt. Real faith is not an easy road, it indeed is a refining fire and as the scripture says, do not fear the firey trial. I encourage you to embrace it. All the hurt, the pain and the grief the Father will turn into joy at the day of Messiah’s appearing. Believe it and embrace it.

Beloved ones, do not be surprised at the fiery trial that is coming upon you, to try you, as though some unusual matter has befallen you, but as you share Messiah’s sufferings, rejoice, in order that you might rejoice exultingly at the revelation of His esteem. If you are reproached for the Name of Messiah, you are blessed, because the Spirit of esteem and of Elohim rests upon you. On their part He is blasphemed, but on your part He is praised.
1 Peter 4:12-14 (The Scriptures 2009)